Five Weeks Later……

Today marks five weeks since having surgery!  I feel like this week is the first time since surgery that I am starting to almost feel like myself.  I am still healing and having to see a wound sister (nurse) every two days to check on my incision but things are looking up.  I feel like the journey has taken a new turn and it is the downhill part since there has been so many uphill battles over the last five weeks that right now I am having this time of just enjoying the moment.

The past week the Lord has taken this verse and put it in my mind and in my face many times.

  Isaiah 30:18 “Yet the Lord longs to be gracious to you; he rises to show you compassion.  For the Lord is a God of justice. Blessed are all who wait for him!”

When I read this verse there are a few things that stand out to me as I think about the past five weeks and the emotional rollercoaster I have been on:

1. The fact that the Lord LONGS to be gracious to us/me and rises to show us/me compassion.  That is a beautiful image as I start to think about it.  Over the last weeks I know the Lord has been so gracious to me as he listened to me complain and just have hard moments of trying to understand everything that was going on.  The Lord’s compassion is bigger than anything I can think of and to know that he rises to show it to me/us.

2. WAITING….this is a word that I don’t like to hear.  I have done a lot of it in the past five weeks.  In fact right now I am even reading a book about waiting.  Waiting/God’s timing…….these are two things that I have been learning so much about.  Not the two easiest things to be learning about!! Over the last week God has really been drawing me back into Him and spending more time with Him and learning more about Him.  All of this can be happening because I am in the waiting of not being able to fully dive back into work so I still have extra time and at a place where I am waiting to hear from God!

As I look back on the last five weeks and realizing how far I have come and then I also remember that it has been one day at a time and there were many hard days but also good days where I saw God in many different ways.  Right now I am still in the waiting of the healing process for two more things…….. to be cleared to be able to go back to the gym and to be cleared to be able to pick things up.  The picking things up is hard because I haven’t been able to pick up and get real kiddo hugs in five weeks and for those of you who really know me know that is  really hard!  Again WAITING!!

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